The Black Friday

"God, it's killing me."
These were Roger's words during the trophy ceremony at the Australian Open this year after he lost that epic final to his nemesis Rafael Nadal.I still remember that intense pain which gripped Federer.
But after his loss to Novak Djokovic at the Miami Masters semifinals,I think these words have become more prophetic.It's not only killing Federer but also all his fans worldwide.
I was really very disappointed with Federer after he lost to Andy Murray in the semifinals of Indian Wells.I completely believed that he could win that match but I thought at the end the loss was all due to his own faults.
But after Federer lost to Djokovic yesterday,I have no words to blame him.After watching the whole match,I could feel the problems faced by Federer.It was neither a mental block nor a lapse of concentration.But the windy conditions which destroyed his game!I know if I blame the conditions,he cannot win the match which he has lost.But those who have watched the match carefully ,they can understand what I mean.The shots which Federer never misses,he missed those so frequently!It was unbelievable.
Those were the worst two sets I have ever seen Federer play.The frustration could be clearly seen in Federer when he smashed his racquet.I guess,people might have started making an issue out of that.The people who didn't spare Federer after he shed his tears before the entire Rod Laver Arena even though I couldn't witness anything abnormal in that ,how can they leave him when he smashes his racquet!Shame on those people!

I couldn't sleep the last night just pondering why God is being so rude to Federer.Why doesn't He make him happy?What does He gain by doing all these?Why everything went against him including his luck?Why,why,why?I don't have any answers to these questions.But this time I have no reason to be angry with him,to be honest!

He is my idol.I love him as much I love my mother.Just like you never leave your true friends despite the highs and lows in their lives,similarly how can I leave Federer,how can I be happy when he is not and how can I enjoy when he is facing such a tough period in his professional life?
I have learned to value relationships,I will be loyal to my loved ones till the day I die.That may even cost me my own life because life can never be exciting without true relationships!

Today,I am filled with frustration ,irritation as well as anger waiting to erupt from my inner body as soon as they get an orifice.I just want to smash everything.Maybe,more or less it is related to Federer's loss.Maybe,because God does not listen to me.Maybe,God does not want this emotional turmoil to end in the near future.Everything is in destiny's hands now.But still I would like to pray God please bring the spring in Federer's life as well as in mine.